Weekly Review

Well I did it ..... I completed another week. There has been so much on my mind that I've wanted to blog about and couldnt due to lack of time. I decided tonight that before I did anything else I would at least blog about my week. So as I sit funky from tonight's workout I have a smile on my face. Its been a trying week but I MADE IT! *cues Kirk Franklin*

This week started off BAD. I had such a bad attitude at the beginning of the week. I woke up in pain, tired, bloated and irritable. When I stepped on the scale I had gained 4 lbs. I knew this was wrong. It takes 3200 calories to gain a single pound and I had been struggling to consume 1200. It didnt take long for me to realize that I was PMS'ing and that put me in a real funk. Someone on myfitnesspal.com suggested that I take pamprin and increase my water input to 8-10 cups a day. I did and it worked! I'm still a little tired and irritable but my bloated belly is no more! When I weighed in last night I had actually lost weight ..... bring my total weight loss down to 7.4 lbs! I almost cried .... yeah I'm a cry baby. I have 7 lbs to go before I'm writing a post saying bye bye to the 80s. I cant wait.

Food wise I did great this week. I cooked and perfected a chicken stir fry at the beginning of the week. I could totally eat that every single day and not get tired of it...thats just how delicious it was. My goal is to post the recipe on here ... when I get time :/ My second meal of the week was a veggie lasagna. I'm trying to introduce a new veggie and fruit into my diet biweekly. This week's veggie was eggplant and the fruit was apricot. Eggplant to me is beautiful and I've heard such wonderful things about it. However I personally do not like it. I'm willing to give it another try but in the lasagna it was not tasty. I think I'd rather stick with zucchini and squash. I had the apricot today and it reminded me of a sour peach. Yeah I didnt care for that either. The good news is that my son loved the apricot so they will not go to waste :)

The one thing that I noticed this week and am very proud of is that my stomach/body has adjusted and I now do not have to eat so much. I get full off of one cup of rice, pasta, cereal, etc. The real shocker came this afternoon when I went to Applebees and ordered a burger. I could only eat half of the burger because I was so full. That has never happened before. Honestly I didnt know whether I should be happy or sad. That was one of the best burgers ever and I couldnt even finish it off. :/

Exercise wise I did good. Shaun T kicked my ass this week. He has been babying me with the Fat burn cardio but this week I did the total body burn and lets just say me and shaun arent on the best of terms. My entire body hurts .... but thats ok. I know next week when I weigh in, I'll reap the rewards :)

I'm looking forward to next week. I've been doing this plan for 15 days and am down 7.4 lbs. At this rate I should be at my goal weight by the time I return to work. Watch out now .... team 30 and FAB in full effect ;)

12 Steps: Emotional Eating

I've heard that when a person has an addiction and enters rehab the first thing that he/she must do is first admit that there is a problem. So I guess that is how I will begin this post tonight. Hi, my name is Kimberly and I'm an emotional eater.

As I thought about this post I tried to remember when and how I became an emotional eater. I drew a blank. I do remember when I first realized that food made me feel better. That was in 2006. I had just left my husband, I was a single mom, I was in a stressful position at a new school, I was away from my family & friends, I was in a new town and well food just became everything to me. When I was happy, I ate. When I was sad, I ate. When I was angry, I ate. When I was lonely, I ate. Eating got me through difficult times. I didnt have to cry, I could eat and instantly feel better. And so this was the mentality that was established and therefore I became an emotional eater.

Things got better ..... I really have not gone on any binges lately. That is until tonight. Tonight I completed my five miles(woo hoo) and got the bright idea that I should look at my student's FCAT results. They say curiosity killed the cat and I can see why Mr Cat died because I often find myself placed in awful situations because my curiosity got the best of me. Tonight was no different. First of all I must say that I am a teacher who prides herself on having excellent test scores. I've been in this profession for 7 years(and my waist line shows it lol) and my results have never been less than 90%. This year my score is 76%. Before I knew it all types of emotions were coming and going. I was mad as hell, I wanted to cry, I was happy for those who did well, I was depressed, etc. What was funny is that although I was NOT hungry at all, the first thing that I wanted to do was eat. :/ I knew eating would make me feel better instantly....it would tame all of the emotions that were running through me.

In a perfect world and a perfect blog I'd type that I fought that urge and went about my business. However this is not a perfect world. I had baked chicken, brown rice and black beans, not bad right? Have you ever seen a crackhead fiending for crack? Is that ever a pretty sight? No not at all. I feel like emotional eating is no different .... its an addiction. Dont laugh but seriously there's an emotional eater's anonymous lol <---- sorry for laughing. I've made it to step 4 just by writing this blog post. Hopefully I can make it all the way to step 12 ;)

I did it, I did it, oh yeah yeah yeah

I promise this is one of my favorite scenes from Finding Nemo. To quote Dory, "I DID IT I DID IT OHHHHH YEAH YEAH YEAH" What did I do?

* Ive gone a month without eating fast food

* I've exercised every single day

* I've met my goal of walking 5 miles a day. Now I'm considering moving it up to 10!

* I've tried new fresh fruits(papaya) and veggies(cauliflower)

* I've met my mini-weight loss goal

I am so proud of me. If you dont pat yourself on the back, who will? *Dory voice* I DID IT I DID IT OH YEAH YEAH YEAH ....... THERE'S NO EATING HERE TONIGHT, NO EATING HERE TONIGHT, NO EATING HERE TONIGHT YOU'RE ON A DIEEETTTTT! LOL

Goodnight :)

Bye 90's ...................... HELLO 80's

I really do not know where to begin with this post. I'm really emotional so I'm sure I'm going to be all over the place but here goes.

I have been 190-ish for as long as I can remember. At my largest I was 199 .... a mere 1 lb away from being 200. Last year when I did Insanity I lost inches but pound wise I was stuck at 192...thats as far as I made it. My goal was always to get out of the 90s and quite frankly I never thought I'd make it.

So with this new journey I have been setting mini-goals via the Wii Fit. Nothing major...2 pounds here, 2 pounds there. I achieved the first goal and really didnt think anything of it since the goal was 190 ..... STILL in the freakin 90s :( So then it came to the second goal.... I did two pounds again which would take me to 188 and OUT of the 90s. Today I got on the Wii fit to have a little fun and work on my balance. During the weigh in I noticed that my weight was 189.6. I never would have expected to have the reaction that I did ...... I literally broke down into tears. Even as I type this I feel the tears coming again LOL. I DID IT!!!!!!!! I did what deep down I really did not think I could do. I'm out out of the 90s LOL. My goal has to be met by Wednesday and I have 1.6 pounds to go. I am so motivated. So out with the old and in with the new. Bye bye 90s.....you sucked anyway :) HELLO 80s and 70's I have my EYE on YOU!

Bye Bye Fast Food

Isnt that picture disgusting? Doesnt it make you just wanna puke? Well thats how I felt when I discovered what was actually in fast food. I was minding my business on facebook one day when I came across a site called FoodFacts-Whats actually in your food. While this is the day that saved me I often joke that I wish I would have just put my phone down. My curiosity got the best of me that day and I clicked like. My life has not been the same since. When I discovered what was actually IN alot of the fast food that ate I was sick to my stomach. I havent touched the stuff since.

I'm no different then most of you. I work 8 hours a day in a very stressful field and I have a 9 year old son who happens to be autistic. Sometimes the LAST thing that I want to do after working all day is come home and cook. Wendys, Chick Fila, Pollo Tropical and Burger King were staples in our household. Dunkin Donuts and McDonalds for breakfast were an every day occurence. Pizza on Mondays, wings on Wednesdays.....sometimes I went a full two weeks without ever touching my stove :/ I dont type those things with pride....I type them to show you just how reckless I was living. I cant take back the last year....I cant take back the damage that endless trips to various fast food restaurants have done to my body but I could change.

They say the worst thing that anyone could ever do is to quit a habit cold turkey. Its true lol I gave up fast food cold turkey. No more Burger King, no more Pizza Hut......no more Dunkin Donuts. Shoot! And I was just starting to get addicted to coffee again :) At first it was easy....I simply thought about everything that I had read on foodfacts.com and that knowledge alone was enough to turn me away. However it got to be a lil difficult when I started taking road trips and/or being away from home for long periods of times. Difficult but still doable. I am happy to announce that I have been without fast food for a month. I dont miss it. Yesterday a guy next to me was eating a Popeyes meal .... it smelled delicious and my mouth watered but when I thought about what exactly was IN that meal, my saliva quickly dried up lol

So I happily say, bye bye fast food! It was good while it lasted but like so many other unhealthy relationships in my life, ours has come to an end :)

Hello ..... its me, Kimberly

Its been a year since I last blogged on here. Its been a year since I even thought about working out. Its been a year since I was focused on becoming a "different me". What a year it has been? Emotionally, physically, professionally, and spiritually it has been a very difficult year. At one point I sat back, looked in the mirror and believe it or not, I didnt even recognize the person staring back. I gained ALL of my Insanity weight back and was almost pushing 200 lbs. I hated my job....I hated my career. And I was angry. Angry at the world and angry at myself and the bad thing is I have NO clue WHY I was so angry. I decided that I was going to do some things differently.....take a lil time to find me again and I have to say that I have been LOVING the journey.

So YES I am back to doing "a different me" but I'm doing it on MY terms. I've been doing it for a few weeks and I already see major differences. I cant wait to see the end results. Welcome back to my journey :)

Day 1 down, Day 2 down...88 days to go

I have not blogged in so long. I think the same vacation that I took towards exercising and eating right is the same vacation that I took towards blogging lol. I ended my 60 days of Insanity and literally went INSANE! I went on vacation and vowed that I would eat whatever I wanted, not exercise and just be free. I loved every minute of it and I didnt go as crazy as I thought I would. I only gained 2 lbs. Not bad, not bad at all. However I knew that once I returned from vacation that I would begin p90.

Honestly I was scared and really not looking forward to it. Why? Because Insanity totally turned me against any other beach body program. I flat out hated Insanity. I loved the results but hated the program. Prior to beginning p90 I watched all of the videos to see what I would be getting myself in to. It didnt seem too bad so I was ready to begin.

I did my first workout on Sunday and loved it. I woke up on Monday morning with so much energy. I had energy all day and literally could not sit still. I did the second workout yesterday and loved it. I woke up this morning and my legs were sore but my energy level is still pretty high.

So I have 88 days left.......................I cant wait to see how I'll look after my 90 days are up :0)