The E in Exhausted

I havent blogged in like forever. I havent exercised in like forever. The past 5 days have been filled with tears, prayers, stress and worry. I'm trying to make a change professionally and keep tripping over stumbling blocks. The good thing is although I'm tripping I'm not staying down .... I continue to get up and run the race.

I'm the type of person who is always looking for a lesson. I'm always looking for a bright side or a "this happened because". I'm convinced that things just dont happen .... there is a reason behind it and a learning opportunity as well. Even when bad things happen I always find myself asking myself "What am I suppose to learn from this?" "How is this going to make me a better person?" "Why did this happen?"

I received a phone call on Friday that threw my entire summer for a loop. The entire summer I've been happy and actually looking forward to returning to work. All of that ended with one simple phone call. I dont think I've stopped crying every since. Thankfully I know where my help and strength come from and I found myself falling on my knees.  It was funny because I had just left my knees on Wednesday about another situation and when I woke up Friday that situation had been resolved only for another one to pop up. I had just finished telling everyone how great God was only to find myself in another position of asking him to rescue me.

The one thing that I have learned within my 29 years is that God does not always come when WE want him to BUT he is always right on time. I've had countless experiences where this has been proven. I remember leaving Georgia on a prayer and faith the size of a mustard seed .... thats all I had .... I was penniless, homeless and jobless and within a few weeks God had blessed me with a job, a place and money. You cant have a testimony without a test. Thats the lesson that I am getting out of what I am going through right now.  I believe 100% that God is going to come through for me and while this is a test unlike any other tests that I've ever had ... I know that my testimony is also going to be greater.

As of today I've done all that  I could do. The rest is left up to him. I am exhausted! Stress + Worrying + Bad Nerves + Crying + Lack of Sleep will do that to you :/ Now that my part is over I just want to sleep and allow GOD to work! I know he is working it out for me :)

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KL