Just call me JOBetta

If I sound a little confused as you read this its probably because as I type it I am laughing and crying .... at the same time. I'm laughing at the title. I spoke with my mother a few minutes ago and informed her that I should've been named JOBetta ....a reference to the character of Job within the bible. Maybe that's being a bit extreme but that's how I feel and I'm crying because well it seems that everything in my life is going wrong. And when I say everything I truly mean everything. Romantically, financially, spiritually, physically, mentally, professionally. I feel like Job. If you've been under a rock Job lost everything .... his kids, his livelihood, his health .... EVERYTHING.

When I think about Job I kind of want to kick myself. Despite everything that's occurring I still have my health, I still have a job, I still have a roof over my head, I still have my child. I dont think anyone has had it worst than Job. The thing that I admire the most about Job was his faith. Despite all that happened Job still believed and trusted in God and because of his faith he was rewarded and blessed. As each incident has taken place within the past few weeks my faith has remained in tact. I've been here before .... hell I've been in worst shape. I've been homeless,  jobless and penniless at the same time and God came through for me. I'm trusting that he will come through again and that everything that is happening is happening for a reason. I'm holding on to the hope that things will get better.

A few Sundays ago we had a guest speaker and the one thing that was said by her that stuck out the most was her quote about faith. She said that when times are good people have all of the faith in the world but when faith is needed, it suddenly disappears. This mean that when everything is going our way we trust in God and believe in him. However when something bad happens the first thing that we do is question why and our faith in God suddenly disappears.....we start seeking answers in Obama, the governor, our parents, and etc.

My faith has been tested plenty of times and I wish I could say that I passed every test but I cant. I get mad sometimes. It sucks to see bad things happening to good people. But no matter what has happened my belief in God has stayed the same. I have no other choice but to believe. I've seen what he has done not only in my life but in other people's life as well. I know that all things are possible through him. I'm just hoping and praying for a breakthrough.

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KL